Monday, January 28, 2013
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
First few days at home
I am on another 2 week liquid diet post op, but its simple this round. I don't want anything. I can barely get the water down, most days water is all I have had. (they say this is normal right now). Aside from water, I need to be attempting to get protein in. By either broth, protein shakes, or mixing powder into jello or pudding. I tried broth my first day home, I didnt want it. I think my taste buds are whacked. Ive stuck to water every since, having a pudding here and there. I am not able to even finish the little puddings in one sitting. Yesterday I slept the majority of the day. My legs felt wobbly, I knew I needed more water and some protein. I asked Joey to take me to the gas station. I needed to make this water appetizing LOL. I bought some chewy ice and disani water, today I am doing water a bit better. Last night I also had a glass of milk (one cup has 8 protein in it) Not near as much protein as I need in a day, BUT its a start. I HATE MILK. I drank it like a champ... took me FOREVER to drink it, cause no gulps, only sips. But I did it.
This morning my pain was a bit more than it has been, mainly cause I didnt wake up last night for my middle of night dose. But even going that long without the pain med it wasnt that bad.
I dread being out of work for these next 2 weeks, I am already bored out of my mind, which is probably why I slept all day yesterday. But I also need to be sleeping, as I need the rest.
Not really too much else going on. Well there is the dreams... I guess the pain medication is making me have wild dreams. Not only wild, they last forever, its not the quick dreams you are used to having, its like short movies and they are soooo real, its crazy.
I have dreamed about some crazy childhood that I apparently had, very detailed as if it were true... I have dreamed about a huge family vaction that my whole family went on and Braxton gets lost. I have dreamed while out of work they hired a few people and when I got back I did not like these people. And of course... I have dreamed about food. Last nights was about a big nice juicey cheeseburger, fries and chicken nuggets. I woke up tasting the food in my mouth it was soooo real!!!
Anyway thats all for now...
-BrattyAsh
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Seeing the arches...
Stopping at McDonalds on the way home, would defeat the purpose of four days in hospital, right? LoL totally joking of course... Glad to be going home!!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
A day in my new life
Welp, I made it thru! Yesterday morning, I was soooo scared. Totally freaking out, telling myself I should have chosen the sleeve, there's no way possible that ill be able to remember to take all these pills. Then Dr. Kelly came in, reminded me WHY im doing this. Its either go all or ho home.
Surgery went beyond good. He told Joey that if he were to say I loss 7 drops of blood he'd be lying. My liver was not as large as before, easy to work around. They did have to give me two breathing treatments while in surgery. Then while in recovery my oxygen was extremely low. Stayed in recovery for a long time. As I was Wheeled to my room, my chest started hurting, they thought I was having a heart attack. They ran testin, all comeback okay. It was just gas build up in my chest.
Its crazy how full I am after eating. I had like 8or10 sips of broth, three tiny bites of jello and some water and I feel super duper full. The pain isn't that bad though sometimes it can be rough. On my left side they used a bit of a bigger tool so it hurts worse there. I've been walking and sitting up as I should. Only issue I'm having is staying awake. Guess because I'm so drugged I keep falling asleep!! Which I've been don't the whole time writing this. That's it for now.
-brattyash
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
A new life... 1/9/2013
Today my life changes. Other than being hungry, im okay this morning. I can not allow myself to become weak. But its so simple to think of all the things that could go wrong. I have to not do that. I have a husband to get back home to, he is my rock. He loves me unconditionally, like no other. He loves me for the flawed person I am. He simply adores me. (As I do him of course!) My boys, oh my sweet little men, they have a great example in front of them for a man. I am a piece of their rock as well, I know they need me. I love them sooo dearly much, i could crumble even slightly thinking of what could go wrong. These 3 guys are my inspiration, where I get the drive to do this, where I will find the strength to overcome this whole journey. I will be a success, not a failure.
Here it goes. This is for you Joey- to a life for many years with even more adventures, I can not wait to grow old with you, in good health. This is for you my boys, I am doing this so that we may share many more years together making memories. I want to see ur graduations, ur weddings, babies. I want to be there able to support you both through it all. I love yall.
-BrattyAsh