Peace is what she must feel. Rest, she will do...

Peace is what she must feel. Rest, she will do. In the past 6 months, sadly, I probably only talked to her 5 times, but when I did, she was quick to tell me her opinions. That wasn't anything new, loudly opinionated is who My dear Aunt Carolyn was. Before I openly shared about having Gastric Bypass, I was worried for a few peoples opinion. Carolyn's being one of them. Seeing her struggle with her weight most my life, I knew weight was a battle that she had lost, somewhere along the lines she lost control of it. though I never knew she had considered GB before. When she first told me, before my surgery that she was proud that I was able to step up to the plate and do what I needed to do to take control of my health. It was then I realized, she wished she would have years ago. She wished she would have done more than just look into the surgery. There were things that happened that always made her put it off, but then there come a time where it just wasn't an option any more.

I talked to her a few times since having surgery, she would check in with me. The last time I talked to her was last Saturday. She told me she had seen a picture on Facebook and she was so glad to see that I looked so much healthier already. Again, she mentioned how bold I was to get it done and take charge. Again, I knew her words of encouragement to me stem from thoughts of regret that she never did. I told her how grateful I am for her support, its not something I hear from every one. Its not something that everyone knows, that it was a step to save my life. Most people, probably don't even look at it as if I was bold to do it... but she was quick to understand and to remind me. It brought the months that I put this off, the months of being in denial that GB was what I was going to have to do to attempt to save my life, brought it back to my mind. If I had known that not having the surgery may have been a regret of hers, I would I have considered talking to her about it when I was so against it.

This is my last message to My dear Aunt Carolyn: "Though I wasn't always around, though we didn't keep in touch like I should have. Your everlasting love and support with what I have been going thru the last 6 months did not go unnoticed. Your support built me up, assured me I did the right thing. I appreciate you always being accepting of this life change for me. And in your honor, I will always remember to fight my way to beat obesity. I will be a WLS success. If I ever want to give up, I will remember your words, your support, and your everlasting love. I love your Aunt Carolyn. You will be missed."