Honestly, I am not perfect at this. I have many flaw, incase anyone is giving me credit, where its not due. But I can say, I am ALOT more than EVER conscious of what I am eating. My issues become when I eat in a pinch... like on the run. We all know our choices of food on the run.
I used to stop for breakfast every morning and eat lunch out everyday (I still eat lunch out... ill get there) I do not stop for breakfast any more. A handful of times since Jan 9th, I have had to because I hadnt been to the grocery store or I forgot my food at home. I think everytime I have had to stop it was chik fil a, once I got hashbrowns (CARBS, not to mention the grease), but they settled with me good. I mean to get an idea of the amount I can eat, from an order of hasbrowns at Chik fil a, I can eat MAYBE 5 hasbrowns, thats pushing it, normally by the 3rd/4th one, I stop. But none the less, hasbrowns are not healthy for anyone, and its definitely not something I need to be eating after given this wonderful tool of GB. But old habits are hard to break. Once I tried the breakfast wrap, I can not eat wraps/bread yet, so I ate the insides of it. This actually wasnt so bad, cause it is high protein (eggs, meat, cheese) but for the amount of money I spent on the 2 1/2 bites, its not worth it.
Speaking of not worth it. We do not eat out for dinner much any more, BUT when we do, I forget I have had surgery. My brain will always belong to a "fat girl". I order just as I always have still, in most cases. Joey and I have sometimes remembered to share or I share with the boys, but sometimes, out of habit, I order like before. Which happened last night... but ill get to that after I say a little about this:
I have had to go have 2 endoscopies in the last month, the first one I had to get stretched a good bit, this made me be able to eat easier. Last tuesday I had to have another, and this week has been another week of eating good. Last night we had cracker barrel.... I ordered chicken fried chicken 2 sides of green beans and apples (I get those for the boys, they love them). If I wouldnt have thought before I ordered, I should have got the childrens vegatable plate, grilled. But I didnt think, ordered on impulse, because this is a place I have been craving. Anyway it comes, I cut the chicken, take a tiny bite and knew automatically it wasnt for me. Chicken has been an IFFY food for me post op. I used to only like white meat, but what I have tried post op, white meat is waaaay to dry, even baked, rostisserre, grilled. If the meat of dry, even the smallest bites "hurt". Even after just having the endoscopy and getting stretched again, chicken still doesnt sit well. Anyone who knows me, knows, Im a chicken kinda girl.... But if my body turns out to reject chicken, then so be it. Its worth it. Anyway, so I was left with 2 sides of green beans.... boy I tore them up!! That was the most food I have eaten at one sitting since surgery. It was unreal how fantastically yummy those green beans were.
Another experience with a food I have always loved.... I was craving something last week, I couldnt pinpoint what... Stephanie and I went to lunch at work to Sweet Tea Grill, I have eaten here several times post op, usually getting a plain ceasar salad, which is DELCIOUS there.... but I went for the lunch special, I wanted to be "bad". I got fried chicken dark meat, mashed potatoes (which I can have right now, but it does not need to become a staple in my diet), and maccroni and cheese (pasta is a no no right now, carbs). But anyone who knows me.... mac&cheese has always been a several times a week eating thing for me. Anyway, I took the skin off my chicken thigh, and I ate that meat, I ate about half the meat off the thigh, it was soo good. I may have had two bites of the mash potatoes, I attempted ONE SINGLE mac&cheese noodle. (post op, you have this thing called 'dumping', and it scares me, tends to happen with carbs, and saying I have not tried carbs, I am scared to try them) but I put that one noodle in my mouth... GROSS.... I didnt like it??? Was it cooke bad that day? Steph said it tasted as good as normal... maybe my taste buds have changed already. Whatever the reason I didnt like it.... I am glad I didnt... and hope that sticks around!
As you can see, I am not the best at this, but I am really trying hard. I am conscious of whats going in my mouth, I know what I am eating. I know I need to be prepared all the time so that I do not make bad choices on a whim.
Anyway.... why this post, today? Well I woke up late for st pattys parade.... rush to get down there, noticed I didnt eat. I had the boys snacks, but not myself. So I went without eating (bad idea). When we left, we decided Ronnies. Got chicken fingers to share, got home, took one bite and remembered, oh yeah.... tooo dry for me. Once I get that feeling, I can not eat for a while. So then, hours later we went grocery shopping, by this time it was dinner time. The boys wanted mcdonalds in walmart. I ordered FRIES.... I had about 6-8 french fries which got me thru til we got home and I browned some lean hamburger meat. I ate about 1/4th a cup of that. That is all I have had today. I didnt do good on my water intake either... but hey, we did lots of walking, LOL! But this is what a day of being unprepared can be like for me.... its testing to find something that sits well as it is, and to make choices without thinking/planning is not good!
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